Now...where was I?
Ok, so the next Friday night, Freedom Atlanta Ministries has a seemingly random open mic night that I didn’t plan on participating in. But, God told me I was going to have to read my poem.
It took me so long to get to the stage, when they first called my name, I ran to the bathroom! I was so terrified! The poem God gave me to share was about my life and it was personal to me. And this was my first time ever standing before a crowd and really exposing myself.
After a pep talk from my one of my sisters, some encouraging scriptures, and then force, I finally made it to the front to share. After a long introduction and a few breakdowns, I read my poem! With every word I spoke, I could feel my heart break; I wasn’t even sure that people could understand me through my tears.
And then…it was over. I had done it! I was ready for stones to be thrown, but I only received acceptance and love from my Well family. My leadership prayed for God to strengthen me and to take away the shame and pain from my past so that I can go forward and share my testimony with others. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but afterwards I felt a breakthrough and a release. It is a scary thought, opening my life in public and sharing with others, but this is what God wants me to do and with Him I know can do it
I am starting to realize now that this was all a Holy Ghost set-up, and I’m very thankful for it.
The timing was so perfect because the next day I got baptized!
It was so powerful for me because God has been delivering and healing me from all the foolishness I brought into my life because of my past mistakes; they are all under the blood of Jesus. He takes away my sins and then confirms that I am a new creature in Him and the old me is buried, dead, and gone! I can press forward now knowing that it is not me, but Jesus Christ who lives within me, who is taking me through every day.
God has been growing this burden within me and is preparing me now to go forth and share the stories of my life so that they can help others. I have been fake almost my entire life because I was so scared of what everyone would think of me if they really knew who I was or the things I’ve done. But, God has brought me to a place where I am realizing how much my life is not my own. Yes, I will be judged and maybe even hated for what God is calling me to do, but if it will save someone’s life or stop another person from going to hell, it’s worth it.
To read the poem I wrote, click here.
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