I WILL NOT be Ashamed

In You, O LORD, I put my trust; let me never be ashamed; Deliver me in Your righteousness.

For You are my rock and my fortress; therefore, for Your name’s sake, lead me and guide me. Pull me out of the net which they have secretly laid for me, for You are my strength. Into Your hand I commit my spirit; You have redeemed me, O LORD God of truth.

I will be glad and rejoice in Your mercy, for You have considered my trouble; You have known my soul in adversities, and have not shut me up into the hand of the enemy; You have set my feet in a wide place.

But as for me, I trust in You, O LORD; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in Your hand; deliver me from the hand of my enemies, and from those who persecute me. Make Your face shine upon Your servant; save me for Your mercies’ sake. Do not let me be ashamed, O LORD, for I have called upon You; let the wicked be ashamed; let them be silent in the grave. Let the lying lips be put to silence, which speak insolent things proudly and contemptuously against the righteous.

Oh, how great is Your goodness, which You have laid up for those who fear You, which You have prepared for those who trust in You in the presence of the sons of men! You shall hide them in the secret place of Your presence from the plots of man; You shall keep them secretly in a pavilion from the strife of tongues.

Blessed be the LORD, for He has shown me His marvelous kindness in a strong city! For I said in my haste, “I am cut off from before Your eyes”; Nevertheless You heard the voice of my supplications when I cried out to You.

Oh, love the LORD, all you His saints! For the LORD preserves the faithful, and fully repays the proud person. Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the LORD.

(Psalm 31:1, 3-5, 7-8, 14-24 )

I'm back and God is AWESOME! pt. 2

Click here if you have not read part 1.

Now...where was I?
Ok, so the next Friday night, Freedom Atlanta Ministries has a seemingly random open mic night that I didn’t plan on participating in. But, God told me I was going to have to read my poem.

It took me so long to get to the stage, when they first called my name, I ran to the bathroom! I was so terrified! The poem God gave me to share was about my life and it was personal to me. And this was my first time ever standing before a crowd and really exposing myself.

After a pep talk from my one of my sisters, some encouraging scriptures, and then force, I finally made it to the front to share. After a long introduction and a few breakdowns, I read my poem! With every word I spoke, I could feel my heart break; I wasn’t even sure that people could understand me through my tears.

And then…it was over. I had done it! I was ready for stones to be thrown, but I only received acceptance and love from my Well family. My leadership prayed for God to strengthen me and to take away the shame and pain from my past so that I can go forward and share my testimony with others. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but afterwards I felt a breakthrough and a release. It is a scary thought, opening my life in public and sharing with others, but this is what God wants me to do and with Him I know can do it
I am starting to realize now that this was all a Holy Ghost set-up, and I’m very thankful for it.

The timing was so perfect because the next day I got baptized!

It was so powerful for me because God has been delivering and healing me from all the foolishness I brought into my life because of my past mistakes; they are all under the blood of Jesus. He takes away my sins and then confirms that I am a new creature in Him and the old me is buried, dead, and gone! I can press forward now knowing that it is not me, but Jesus Christ who lives within me, who is taking me through every day.


I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me. (Galatians 2:20)

God has been growing this burden within me and is preparing me now to go forth and share the stories of my life so that they can help others. I have been fake almost my entire life because I was so scared of what everyone would think of me if they really knew who I was or the things I’ve done. But, God has brought me to a place where I am realizing how much my life is not my own. Yes, I will be judged and maybe even hated for what God is calling me to do, but if it will save someone’s life or stop another person from going to hell, it’s worth it.

To read the poem I wrote, click here.